This weekend I went to a Garden Party that my church threw. It was a rainy , dismal day but never mind that. It was a glorious day by all other accounts. The food was awesome! I had a fantastic quiche that had maple bacon in it! Yummy! I love bacon :) And afterwards we were able to buy the table centerpieces of the tables. They were these really awesome birdcages and I got one for my room! So the best part was the message. Mrs. Lotz spoke about expecting God to be faithful. Expecting Him to be loving. It's crazy how much expectation can sway an outcome. It was totally the Lord because I've been working on this poem about expectation and turning your "What if's?" into a declaration of "what is!" So here is it. It's entitled "Victory."
What if they all discover my shame
What if there isn't enough of His grace
What if there isn't enough of His grace
What if I lose this hope in my veins
What if the heart inside of me wanes
What if the dark takes over the day
What if my eyes start to silently stray
What if I break under all of the strain
What if nothing can capture my pain
What if this sin leaves a terrible stain
What if this sin leaves a terrible stain
What if I'll always be bound to these chains
I believe I’d sit here all the same
Silently, quietly calling your name.
Until I can stand on this rocky terrain
And remember the man that decided to stay
And whispered to me in golden array
“ You don’t have to go it alone.”
What if promises were written in stone
What if truth was all that was told
What if our sons and daughters came home
What if our sons and daughters came home
What if hearts were made to be bold
What if love could make life from the old
What if peace kissed the burdens we hold
What if beauty surrounded all that I know
What if fear was trampled by faith and hope
What if a hand laid inside of my own
What if this hand would never let go
I believe I’d stand here in the cold
Decidedly, purposefully facing the goal
Until I could jump from the edge of the road
And reach for the heart that has captured my soul
And tell all the doubt that gnaws at my bones
“Today God has taken the day.”
I just feel at the edge of victory. Like I'm walking in it and already the vision of my world is changing. Beauty is everywhere. I'm seeing the fruit of God's promises and I'm just full of love and a heart to serve. God's helping me to conquer things in my life that have been a hiccup to my spiritual growth for a long time. I feel like a warrior. I'm just in awe of what the Lord is doing right now in my life. He is so faithful, so perfect. I can't even describe how much passion is bubbling up inside my heart. The Lord is so good.
Sincerely,
Jaelle the Victorious.
